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That's the line I forgot that led me to great sorrow. Well, the sorrow wasn't that great, but the greatness, well that wasn't all to great either.

Ever wonder what to think after watching End of Eva? No? That means you aren't as much of a loser as I am. But if you answered no, that means you are reading my website, and we all know what that says about you. Anyway, I watched it because I just finished slayers next, which was absolutely excellent beyond any comprehensible definition of excellent, and I was down to Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust or the Eva movies. I chose the Eva movies because Vampire Hunter D isn't really my thing.. but now that I have time to reflect, the Eva movies aren't my thing, either.

So it was last night, and I decided that I would finish watching slayers NEXT, because I stopped watching it for a reason which escapes me presently, but probably resembles that "no apparent" one. I laughed, I didn't cry but if I could have, there were good times and bad times, and my mood was generally good as I followed Lina, Gourry, Xellos, and Zoamelgustar allong on their journeys. I delved, because at 1 o clock with no internet, no friends, no girls, and no-one in the immediate time zone that you can communicate with, you have to try to escape reality. Getting back to the main focus, S:N seemingly made watching the first series worth while, sorta like the second half of Fushigi Yugi. I went to sleep satisfied that my dreams would be good, and when I woke up, there would be a few less hours until my triumphant return to normalcy, comraderie, girls (can you believe I consider stevens girls? but hey, they speak english), my full tower, base and foundation of the glorious tower of media, my big TV, my anime, oh glorious anime, and ah yes a country with a ruler with a warmonger of a ruler I might as well nickname Katsuhiko Jinnai... and of course, a run-on sentence.

So now here I am, and its officially monday, which means that I only have to sit here in the dark, bored another two times before I get to do it in my own bed again.

Don't get me wrong, my vacation has been excellent. The only kink in the absolutely fabulous (spoon-man) chain of events was me breaking my mothers digital camera, which I dramatically, slowly, and thoroughly cleaned and restored to working order earlier today. Portugal, the land of marble, limestone, outrageous landscape, and women who apparently only buy 1 half of bikini's, has been very kind to me in what is now an obvious number of ways. However, I can't wait to leave, and its not even because I like the states. Its because my life is there. The only way I can be happy is if I go all out.

Let me extrapolate. If I make a hole in a wall, it means naturally that I have to fix it. That hole that I caused, that emptiness, will itch and pinch and nag at my brain until I have it completed; when I can forget about it. If I fix that hole, then I can forget it and get to those other itches, other pinches. And believe me, I have enough big ones.. like, forceps, in there to keep me busy. I'm planning on having two big ones removed by the end of the summer, and If you know me and see me EVER you'll know if my plans succeed. However (its main point time again, cats and dolls), if I don't fix it, or even worse, do a half assed job, the nagging in my brain gets bigger and bigger, until It occupies my life, and I can't even think of anything else, even if its vastly important. It happened earlier this year, when I wanted to ask someone out but never did, and it kinda screwed me up for a while (she's gone now, and no you don't know her).

So, its important for me to fix everything thoroughly before moving on. For a while I felt like I was in trouble at work, but I don't feel that way anymore (thankfully for my stress). I kinda feel like I'm in trouble in school, but I know I can pull myself through. That's the only thing I know actually.

I'm going to have a very busy life starting august 2nd, but I think everything will work out. Somehow, I kind of know that.

Enough of this eva-spawned self-reflection, and on to the next topic. Lord Omlette. Now that I've "gotten over my fear of linux", as johnny told me about a year ago this time downstairs in the chapter room while we were talking about free software and Linux vs windows, and I finaly realized what one of amit's programs actually does, I'm thinking about porting it because its actually pretty useful for me, but I don't plan on using windows (_shock!_) when I return to america. Anyway, I'll talk to him more about it when I get back.

Lets see, what else is on the horizon. Oh yeah, I'm going to probably lie some more, because I'm a terrible person. See this? "Definitely coming tomorow are: My liteon 24x.. review". That text is under the news post "Kodomo no Omocha", which was done on the 27th. I never wrote that review because I suck and I don't wish for my site to have anything resembling content. I also still have like 30 fragmented pillows tabs sitting on my hard drive doing no good for no one. But I'm afraid, my loyal public, that this will all have to take a back seat to my master plan for the next 5 months (in case you didn't know, thats all there is left for 2002). In fact, I'm going to go write it out right now. But you'll never see it, because you don't use mozilla. (and if you do, Gomen!) Oh well now that I got my script working so late at night, might as well use it. I'll see you blokes in 3 days.