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Tonight I took part, as the ass in the equation, of a whole big joke right on me. I don't know why, but for some reason I actually don't like it, and its not really due to the virtue of the joke. I can take jokes pretty well, and I don't hold what people do in jest towards me against them very often. But I still sat here, shocked, not knowing what to do or say for about 2 hours. You could try to ask me how I felt, but I wouldn't tell you the truth; its not because I didn't want to, its because I didn't know what the fuck was going on. Well, I think I might have a better understanding.

From those of you just joining us from other places, your listening to smooth jazz 101.7 FM, long hard and heavy right up my ass 24/7. So here's how it went down.

A few weeks ago, or maybe it was last weekend, I logged onto jerm's laptop briefly to do absolutely nothing in particular. Apparently, there was a keylogger or an unencrypted password file; or gaim for windows has really terrible security; in any case, he gained access to napalm of the super variety.

What would you do if you had said access? I have had this sort of thing happen to me in the past. For one instance, the mini ninja's aim password is still saved on the windows partition of the very hard drive that I am delivering this from right now. While I've not and will never use it for malice, I didn't delete it. Strike one for me. Krup's password was saved on my red hat install for a while, too; but I formatted that away. I had database access for about 3 days to a certain site before notifying the curator if the vulnerability and not doing anything to the database or the site. So I guess, if you were me, you'd do nothing.

But I can understand why other people are not like me. Maybe they lack the necessary years of mental development, the balls to tell people what's really on their minds, or the maturity to not fuck with others before a visit to the doctor. In any case, regardless of surrounding circumstances, the fact that I was made a fool of really doesn't bother me. In the end, baby, its all about what's said.

I give out root access to my machines because if people could get a use out of them as a telnet server or anything, I'd like them to. Nobody has ever logged into my computers and screwed stuff up. So it was beyond me that not only would someone not tell me my password wasn't safe, but use it against me. I guess its because its something that I wouldn't actually do.

Anyway, it was definitely funny, and I definitely don't hold a grudge, but I was very shellshocked for the past few hours and I've finaly, through intense thought, discovered why. There are two reasons.

The first is that, appearing as me, someone told someone else that I was in love with them. Its pretty harmless, and I know that nothing was meant by it, but that is something I've only ever said once to one person. Its not something I throw around lightly (the 'in' has special meaning to me, personally), and even if someone else throws it around as me, I'm still disturbed by it. I'm very serious when it comes to stuff like this and only those closest to me (not even family) would have any idea why.

The second is complicated, and though I'll explain, I'm not actually sure this second reason makes much sense. I was concerned tonight, and it was repayed with a Tera Patrick style ass piping. Just felt kinda bad, like I was bending over to help someone up and their friend kicked me in the ass. Except it lasted about 4 hours and made me look even stupider.

So I can forgive all parties involved. Its no big deal; you got me good. I don't really get mad at this kind of stuff anyway. I get even; but by the time anyone reads this, all debts would have been repayed.

Jean Luc Pikachu(my ally?) made some good suggestions in the second ever comment posted on the site; the ends of which should be implemented by tomorow evening. Depending on what the people over pear can give me in the ways of documentation (although really the fact that I'm not done yet is due to my own laziness), I might or might not have an authentication system in place by the end of the week. I did trust people to post in their name, but with the little boys we have running around these parts I think something might have to be done. Until then, I'll extend the only bit of trust I have left for the next few days and notify everyone that javascript will probably work if you make a comment with javascript in it, but please don't.

Anyway, I'll probably be shaken (but not stirred) for the next few days, and then I'll be right back to my good ole self again. To Jerm: Have a Nice Day (tm), to Wendy: Have a nice trip to canada(?), to the kids on the hill plus my mom and my pops: keep it real.